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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

England is getting closer

The time is getting closer and closer. I probably don't even realise exactly how close it is until we are jetsetting our ways across the globe. I'm getting more excited about the close I am going to wear while I am there. I'm excited to wear coats and scalves. Where I live the most exciting you can get is wearing a dress. It's not really the style capital of Australia, so you'd look like an idiot walking down the street all done up in nice layers of clothing. So thats my main drive of excitement to look forward to.

It's going to be great to get away from work again. It's been nice, lately I'll goto work for 2 months and then take some holidays, go back for another 2 months and then take some more... it's how working life should be! I still do not know what position I will be in when I come back. I'm really hoping just to reduce my hours and I feel the toll it is putting on my life and I dont even have a house and kids yet!

I'm really hoping that just maybe my boyfriend might actually really miss me while I am gone. We joke that he wont, and that he will be able to get away from me for awhile. It's so hard trying to teach him things. I've been trying to help him get his finances back in order. Trying to get him to pay his bills and save some sort of money. I feel like a nagging whore most of the time.

I'm getting really fucking sick of our time together being made up mostly of him drinking all night, and then spending the whole day sleeping off that drinking. I'm feeling right back at the bottom of his list and it's making me sad. I don't know what to do about it. Should I shrug it off as him being just a younger guy and still thinks hanging at the pub every day is how a man should spend his time? Or should I tell him to get fucked and call me when he wants to put me before the drinking? argh. Either way I'm going to be the bad person no matter what, even though I'm trying to help him out and help us out.

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I've got to go get my travel insurance organised today and pick up my ticket... it will start to become real once I've got that in my hand!


Oh and P.S. I've been thinking about it, and if I die can you please tell my Mum my website. I'd like them to have a little part of me if I'm gone.